music of my life.

It's been a long time since I've sat down to write something. The reason is a combination of things. The obvious answer is that I've been busy with the craziness and overwhelming sensation that is being a parent. The other answer is that when I write these posts I like them to come to me in waves and be more meaningful than "We went to the park today."

This morning I brought Colum to daycare for the second time (he usually is shuffled between me, his Grampa and Nana, and Nick). I'm working in a non-discript strange office (at the location of the daycare). It's a void. No people are around and I'm surrounded by white walls, my computers and my paperwork.

The silence was killing me. I put iTunes on and the first album that came up was Jai Agnish. It was the album that Nick and I listen to as we brought Colum home from the hospital. It was a very hard day. I cried the entire way home. As I listened to "Lightening Bugs" in a flash it all came back to me. The urge to push forward the emotions that have been in my heart for the last 22 weeks returned. To document the changes of my life. The changes to my marriage. The the things that have stayed the same.

Amazingly, things have mostly stayed the same with some tweaking around the edges. We have this new little person who's been brought into the wonderfulness that is our life. Somewhere along the way we decided to be THOSE parents, the ones that bring their child EVERYWHERE. When he was 5 days old we brought him to our "local" (as nick calls it) and had a drink with all our friends. From that outing on we've continued to trot him around town. ICA, MFA, Aquarium, Charles River, Cambridge, 4th of July in Boston, Methuen, Plainville, Boston, Provincetown, Florida, restaurants, bars. I even breastfed him while sitting at a bar in P-Town.

After nine years of marriage we know what works for us. We love our friends. We love to be social and see people. Our baby has stood on a bar.